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I take paypal, check, or money order.
If Wallflower is bought as a whole, I can strike some kinda deal on shipping.


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I didn't have school today!!!! YAY! I stayed up till 6 a.m. reworking my cost cards for nothing!!!!! I love my life!!!!!

Crow boy

I really have issues concentrating on Cost control. Another wasted class. Well, not wasted because I have all the formulas memorized.
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I call him Karasuko...I'm soooo original.
Crappy pictures are crappy quality because of my crappy phone.

On a totally unrelated note! WHY GOD?! WHY?! Go away Super Junior! You can;t make me love you!!!!


Mar. 1st, 2010

Today I had a really good chat with my dad in the parking lot of the grocery store.

I got a whole lot off my chest. A lot of stuff I'd been holding in that was bringing me down.

I have a lot of troubles with my mom. We pretty much can't hold up a coversation and can't go a day without blowing up at each other (I'm usually the one to lose my temper).
She tends to say things like "You're fat." "You need a boyfriend." "I'm disappointed in the grade you have" and "I don't like that you only have 2 friends." in a roundabout way.
The past couple of weeks it's been at it's worst. She is constantly dropping little insults and nagging about certain things.

I know she says these things because she's concerned. But I can only listen to these roundabout, unintentional insults for so long till it really starts wearing on me and I start thinking that there is something serious wrong with me. Till I start feeling like I'm a disappointment. Till I feel like she can't accept who I am. My dad told me that she does it cause she thinks I'm unhappy with myself. So there is one point of miscommunication. I'm in general happy with myself and I am attempting to do something about my weight.

She has recently yelled at me because I'm currently getting a C in the middle of the phase. I got really mad at her this day. I was also stuck in the car with her most of that day. I didn't talk much then and pretty much shut down and retreated into myself. She is really good at making me feel like a failure. I need to make her understand that I'm not slacking like I usually do. I'm really trying at this cooking thing. No matter how difficult it gets. I want her to realize that she can trust me acedemically. I don't wanna be a fuck up the rest of my life. It's not fun. It hurts the most to see my parents lose their trust in me. This is a really tough phase, but if I can make it through this one I know I can make it till the end. I promised myself I wouldn't fail ever again. It sucks enough that I'm getting straight Bs since the start, when my ultimate goal is to have straight As.

Talking to my dad and knowing that I have someone who will be on my side when I'm right and tell me when I'm being a bitch as well is a really comforting thing.  Especially since I seem to not really be able to express my emotions to my parents lately. like I've become very distant from them. It makes me sad to realize this, but reconnecting with my dad was a very healing thing.

Now the real challenge is getting my mom to sit down and realize that she needs to stop pressuring me about so many things. She needs to step away from me for a while and not worry about so many things. I'm a generally happy person and I am learning to love myself and accept the path I've chosen and even come to realize that my past failures lead me to do what I really want. If I hadn't been forced to find an alternate to JeffCo I'd be paying my parents rent and working a full time job. My mom tends to be like me and not like to her when she's wrong or hurt someone. We're very unapologetic people.

Republic Chai Tea Truffles

Medium sized bowl

4 oz. heavy cream
4 oz. whole milk
1/2 oz. republic chai tea
8 oz. dark chocolate
8 oz. milk chocolate
2 oz. butter

Cut open a teabag and weigh out the proper amount
Chop up the chocolate and combine in your medium sized bowl
Cut your butter up into small pieces and allow to sit out while oyu do everything else, bringing the butter to room temp will allow it to melt into the chocolate easier.

 Combine milk, cream, and tea in a saucepan, bring to a boil.

Remove the pan from the heat and allow to steep for 10 minutes. Wipe out the saucepan in the meantime, you'll need it free of the remaining residue later.

Strain the mixture through a cheesecloth into a measuring cup add some hot water to make the mixture exactly 1 cup, and wring the cheesecloth  thoroughly.

Take your cleaned out saucepan and add the mixture to it. Let that come to a boil.

Pour boiling mixture over the chocolate in a slow and steady stream while you mix to homogenize. You might want to get a helping hand with this one. Remember to take your time, you don't want to get burnt!

After that is all mixed in gently stir in your room temp. butter.

Package up your chocolate and cover it tightly! Chocolate absorbs other smells and strong flavors flaoting aroud you refrigerator!

Leave it there overnight. The next day bring the chocolate back out. If it got really hard just heat up some water and let the steam coming off of it soften the chocolate a little.

You'll want to wear some of those nifty plastic glove things. I forget what they're made of. With a spoon scoop out a decent size and shape it into a ball using your hands. The chocolate will melt in your hands a bit so you'll need to worrk fast with it. Set each piece aside on a sheet tray or plate.

Time to enrobe, if you choose. If you want to leave it as is then set the truffles in the refrigerator and let them harden and enjoy!

To enrobe:
Temper some chocolate of your choice. Here are some methods kindly shown by ghirardeli! www.ghirardelli.com/bake/chocolate_tempering.aspx

Take a fork and set your truffle on it. Set it in your tempered chocolate and make sure it's covered good.

Scoop it up with your fork. Don't pierce it! Gently tap it on the edge of your chocolate bowl to get excess chocolate off. Set it back o your sheet tray or plate and repeat for the others.

Let these set up for a few hours in your refrigerator (covered!!). Then enjoy!!

Yields: 60 truffles, depending on how small of large you make them.

You can use any tea that you prefer, the measurements will stay the same.

Oh, I just love spending 2 hours trying to fall asleep! It's just too much fun for me to handle!
UUUUGH! I wanted to be in bed by 11. I was in bed ut I wasn't sleeping. I keep having this issue. I either can't fall asleep or I have trouble staying asleep. KILL ME!
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Food is Delicious

I forgot my glass plate at home

I'm not proud of this at all. Infact it's utter crap. But it tasted sooo fucking good.

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Uuugh...it's soooo fuckin' delicious
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Pulling my hair out...

I've got a lot to say.
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I should stop before I get out of hand.



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